To be idle is a short road to death and to be diligent is a way of life; foolish people are idle, wise people are diligent.”
-Buddha
-Buddha
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There’s nothing quite like the feeling of revisiting unhealed pain. Pushed aside, but never forgotten. No matter how old, it’s like the heart cracks open and releases a fresh wave of emotions. The anger you thought had faded, the hurt you thought you had overcome. The memories so fresh and vivid it’s as if it just happened yesterday.
I remember each tear, each moment alone- nowhere to turn to, no one who understood.
Maybe even worse is those memories that made you smile before. Before it all went wrong, before your world went upside down. Before you didnt even recognize yourself in the mirror! Oh yes, there is no wound like a wound of the heart, a fragile memory, a locked away secret.
Random dump-age
In life nothing is certain, that’s the scariest thing for me. I think that’s the scariest thing for any over-planning control freak who gets lost when there own plan falls to pieces. But what can you do other than pick the pieces up and formulate a new plan? Life never stays one solid direction, one solid path. Sometimes you can be grasping at the last straws of something you want so badly, but it’s still ripped from your hands- leaving you with nothing but a tear stained face and bruised knees. So, if that’s the case, do you think it’s true that if you fight hard enough for something it’ll be yours? If you just put in that extra effort do you get to keep your dreams? I’d like to say yes, but the feeling that a sick bout of irony would come from that answer keeps me from doing so. I’m not a particularly religious person, and yet at the end of the day I still feel I could say life is in God’s hands. Because, no matter how hard you try, no matter what choices you make- one person will never have full control of their situation (Something that pains me to admit.) You can never guarantee a job, never guarantee a family staying together, your kids turning out right, your love of your life staying by your side. What do you do if one day it just all falls apart? Can one even handle that thought? I know that I could never look myself in the mirror knowing everything had gone to pieces, when that happens- where do you get your strength? The best thing anyone can do is try and try hard. Because nothing in life is worth it if you can’t say that you gave it all you got. But with that said, I’ve also learned something in the small 18 and a half years I have lived- That no plan is worth following if you lose your pleasure in life. What is the point of living if you live miserably? Things may be messy sometimes but almost everything is fixable or amendable. Maybe that’s a bit of a head spin for thoughts- but this page is my thought dump…
Mi carta para mi novio en espanol
Para mi amor,
Te quiero mucho mi amor. Tu eres muy especial a mi. Yo se tu no lees o hables espanol, pero es muy romantico para mi escribo en espanol. En cuatro dias yo voy a nosotros ciudad natal. Hoy yo dibujo un ilustracion de tu nombre, es muy bonito. Me encanta dibujar, especialmente tu nombre y los flores. Mi flores favoritos son los flores de azucena.
Yo estoy muy muy feliz a veo tu. El mes de marzo es entrante pronto, es muy bueno, porque nosotros tenemos nuestro apartamento.
Mi escribiendo es muy comico porque tu no lees mi palabras nunca! aye!
Con mi amor todos,
tu novia
I always thought that there was this one perfect person for everybody in the world, you know, and when you found that person the rest of the world kind of magically faded away, and, you know, the two of you would just be inside this kind of protective bubble, but there is no bubble, I mean if there is you have to make it, I just think life is more than a series of moments, you know, we can make choices, and we can choose to protect the people we love, and that’s what makes us who we are and those are the real memories.
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Just a Thought…
Nothing is more valuable in life than love; jobs, success, stuff, money… it means nothing if your heart is empty. If there was one smart thing that something as stupid as a human being could do, it’s to follow their heart. Otherwise, why are you here? If you follow your brain, you can be rich. Congratulations. I’d rather be middle class in the arms of my love than rich and “in the arms” of a bank teller.
They make it look so easy, connecting with another human being. It’s like no one told them it’s the hardest thing in the world.
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Never forget to take a different view on things, you’ll always discover something you’ve never seen before.
Day 12 – What’s in my makeup bag?
Oh my, the makeup bag… Lol.. Let’s go take a look!
Liquid eyeliner
Pencil eyeliner
Gel Eyeliner
Eyeliner sharpener
Silver, Black, purple, green, and blue eyeshadow
Mascara
Eyeshadow brushes
Eyeliner brush
Tweezers
Makeup remover
Foundation
Eyebrow comb
